“You keep running after the love of the people, but you’ll never get it. And what you do get, will never be enough. The hole inside you is too big. You see, it was made by God, for God. How could anything less fill it?” -Yasmine Mogahed

Every time I’m disappointed, every time my heart breaks, every time I break down it is exactly because of Yasmine’s quote above. Every.single.time. You see the problem is that when I count on something that does not have the power to deliver, disappointment and heart-break is inevitable. Whenever I count on someone or something other than Allah subhanhu wa ta’ala I am taking a risk and that risk has consequences. It might come through or it might not. Whether it does or does not is strictly up to Allah.

So why is it that despite the fact of knowing this, I continue to place my hopes and dreams in these people or things? Why do I continue to place my bet on dunya, so to speak, knowing there is a HUGE chance I am going to lose? Nothing compares to the wisdom Allah provides. Allah the most high says in the Qur’an:

“O you who believe! Intoxicants (all kinds of alcoholic drinks), and gambling, and Al-Ansaab, and Al-Azlaam (arrows for seeking luck or decision) are an abomination of Shaytaan’s (Satan’s) handiwork. So avoid (strictly all) that (abomination) in order that you may be successful. Shaytaan (Satan) wants only to excite enmity and hatred between you with intoxicants (alcoholic drinks) and gambling, and hinder you from the remembrance of Allaah and from As-Salaah (the prayer). So, will you not then abstain?”[al-Maa’idah 5:90-91]

Gambling is not exclusive to Las Vegas casinos.  The moment I start depending on someone other than Allah subhanahu wa ta’ala, I’m placing my bet on dunya openly inviting shaytaan to wreak havoc in my life. Dependency on other than Allah, leads to disappointment which leads to hurt feelings which leads to arguments which leads to saying hurtful things (that I will most definitely regret later) and so on and so forth. I think you get my point. “So, will you not then abstain?” How many bets do I have to lose to realize that dunya will never win? When am I going to understand that Allah az wa jal is a SURE WINNER? Every.single.time. No betting needed.

“So avoid (strictly all) that (abomination) in order that you may be successful. Shaytaan (Satan) wants only to excite enmity and hatred between you with intoxicants (alcoholic drinks) and gambling, and hinder you from the remembrance of Allaah and from As-Salaah (the prayer). So, will you not then abstain?”

I ask Allah to guide all of my brothers and sisters, as well as myself, so that we may be successful and for the strength to never allow anything to come between Him and us. Ameen!

There comes a point in time when you have to stop talking and start praying. You can only tell a person the same thing over and over and over again so many times until you breakdown. Today I brokedown and reached that point.  While my husband is an amazing person with great character at the end of the day he is still human and human = flaws. The good in him outweighs the bad by the tons, but shaytaan is pure evil with the keen ability to make me forget the good in the moments I need to remember them most. So inshaallah, I’m going to stop talking and start praying, stop counting on dunya and start counting only on Allah az wa jal. Ya Allah! Grant me the wisdom and strength to choose only the best of words when I speak. Ameen!


Why the halal can I not keep my mouth shut?

Confession: SubhanAllah, I can’t control my emotions. Go figure.

It drives me crazy that there are so many times when I get upset and I KNOW I’m upset and I KNOW I need to just walk away…walk away….yet I don’t. I stay there, open my mouth, aim, and release subhanAllah (Allah is void of all evil). Only to regret it later 😦 Man I hate that!!!Especially when it’s with my husband and even more so because he always ends up being right. I try not to admit that to him too much 😉 I’m right sometimes too, but its all about the actions I choose to express myself. Throwing a temper tantrum so does not work in my favor and I need to retire it ASAP inshaAllah. It’s the heat of anger that engulfs my heart and my lack of being able to extinguish the fire 😦

Narrated by An-Nu’man bin Bashir:

I heard Allah’s Apostle saying…Beware! There is a piece of flesh in the body if it becomes good (reformed) the whole body becomes good but if it gets spoilt the whole body gets spoilt and that is the heart.

Sahih Bukhari Volume 1, Book 2, Number 49

When my heart is in a good state and at peace so are my thoughts and actions. When my heart beings to feel the onset of anger or being upset it opens the door for my emotions, letting them come in and take over my thoughts and actions.

Obviously, I know all of this but yet I still act the way I do subhanAllah. I started reading  Diseases of the Hearts & Their Cures by Shaykhul-Islam ibn Taymiyyah, rahimullah (May Allah have mercy upon him) and mashaAllah (Allah has willed it) I feel as if the Shaykh is speaking directly to me! Click on the image below to access the PDF file for this book curtisey of

May Allah make us amongst those who have correct hearts, who constantly turn towards Him in repentance, who seek guidance and knowledge to know the truth and follow it. Ameen!